Pushing Forwards and falling backwards

Today it is only 9 am and I'm already exhausted! I feel tired and burnt out. I think I needed a break and some water! I feel like every day I'm battling dishes and a dirty house, only to see the evening come with more dishes and still a dirty house >.<
I refuse to clean the house more than twice a day. Natasha is getting even more helpful, but at the same time testing all her boundries. And having my friends kids around only makes her act up for days afterwards. It's very frustrating because I love and admire my friend, but I really relaly really don't approve of the way she rears her children. When they were here for the party the other day the little boy tore natasha's room and the living room apart single handed! He was in her crib, climibing bookcases/dressers, on the window sill and tossing toys all over the place! And i had JUST spent that entire day organizing and cleaning Natasha's room.
Now I have to do it all over again...

I dont think I'm going to be the type of mother who throws big parties for my kids, unless it's in neutral territory like a skating rink or a park!

Today however I'm seeing my midwife for my 20 week checkup, and I'm also going to a concert tonight for enrichment activity. It should be lovely and the perfect pick up I need away from the house and natasha. Not that I don't love my family but every once in awhile I just needt o get away or I might scream. Today feels like one of those days I might pull my hair out!

I just don't understand how such a small place can get so dirty so quickly and I really do try to keep it clean! I know I didn't in the past, but I've been working really hard to keep the spirit here by having a lovely clean home.

Anyways, now that I have ranted and had my break I should probably get back to that before I have to rush out the door and go to my appointment! I think I just need to slow down for a minute, say a prayer and then get back to work :)