Early Morning Rantings

Today at 430 am I woke up and was unable to go back tosleep. I tried for 30 minutes, tossing and turning, and then realized it was just impossible. At 5 am I got online and got a drink and then became really hungry. Except in my wierdness I'm craving pretzels, the kind I used to get at the mall as a kid. So I think, hey it's 5 am I could make some for breakfast! I browse online for a bit checking out recipes and read reviews then decided on a recipe and here I am making pretzels at a quarter to 6 in the morning. I'm still not tired and I couldn't sleep if I wanted to. Besides the kitchen needed some last minute cleaning and I just can't stand the thought of going to church then coming home to a messy house.

Yesterday was so much fun however! We went to a party for Paddy's birthday, my father in law. That wasn't the fun part, the fun part was coming home and playing DND with Alex and John. We also had pizza and a really good time! We must have playef from 6 to 9pm and I havn't enjoyed myself like that for a long time! Too bad Pete missed out.

Anyways, I am just too full of beans to sit still! Natasha is such a cutie now, she does the most adorable things...two days ago she started initiating the tickle game, where she goes up to our feet and goes "tickle tickle tickle" while trying to tickle them with her fingers. Regardless wether we have shoes on or now haha. It's like a breath of fresh air and always makes alex and myself fall into a fit of giggles. Latley we've been like that though, giggling and laughing together like little kids! I don't know if it's because of our daughter or just because we're at a really good spot in our relationship but it's so lovely. I think I've just learned to let loose with him. I definitly trust him 110% and I can't say that about everyone! (especially guys!)

I think kids have an intrinsic sense if you can be trusted or not because she adores Pete and John who are so akward with kids but try so hard with natasha to be nice to her, she could get away with murder with those two and they would just smile and pat her on the head. Where as get her with in 5 feet of my father in law and she starts screaming and won't let him touch her. Can't say I blame her, he wasn't exactly (and still isn't!) a good father to alex. Sure he helped fininacially, but as most of us know there's so much more to parenting than just providing monetary needs! I also get the whilies around that guy, he has this annoying pet peeve of blantantly kissing me on the lips when he greets me. Sometimes two or three times. I dont know if I'll ever get used to that culture difference, you just dont do that in america! (and besides he's the only guy I know who tried kissing me onthe lips! Everyone else settles for cheek [or even the hand in some cames!])

But then we all know how highly Paddy thinks of himself when he has 5 birthday parties (3 of those being vacations to different countries) just to celebrate his 50th birthday.

Anyways, the pretzels are coming along nicely and I'm sure won't make it through the morning! And what a surprise it will be for Alex when he wakes up :). I know my daugheter is too young to appreciate that I baked them by hand, but alex always appreciates me and I love basking in his appreciation. It's so heart warming to know how completely adored and loved I am by my family. Sometimes I do feel like a big kid!