35 pounds lighter, and 60 to go..:) I am doing well. 2008 is almost over. I have really enjoyed this last half of the year. I went on vacation, I resolved things with my husband and we argue much better. We have grown and learned much. I've started art again and i'm going to go back to school in 2009-2010. I've decided that. Until then I'm trying to make money with my art. I'm giving it from 3-6 months. If that doesnt work then I'll go get a regular job to save up for university.

Right now I'm heading out to a date with my husband to see twilight. I love that book series, although i havent read all 4 just the first 3.

My artwork has really grown over the last year or so, its going new leaps and bounds, and the way i see things and percieve things are getting a lot better.

I know I can do this. I am full of confidence in myself and abilities to be a better person and to make my dreams reality.

New Life style

I've decided to start exercising and eating right. I am tracking my progress in many different ways, for now I'm not using this site regularly to log things. I am keeping up with my personal real life journal.

Sorry all :)

I just prefer to make my journal my own again, and not share with the whole world. I will probably share again when I at my weight loss goal in a year from now.

Or if I feel inspired to write about my kidsa nd family situation.

Thanks all for reading, but I got too many other commitments than blogging at the moment :)

Getting back into things :)

I've neglected some of my favorite hobbies lately as life has kept me really busy. But i'm realizing I need to jump back into the swing of writing as I love it so much.

I'm making a point to post pictures and write here more often.

Last night I had a dream about eating this most heavenly piece of food. It was plain by normal standards, in that it had home baked bread and meat with it. But that was enough it was warm and the bread was light and fluffy. It woke me straight out of bed and into the kitchen I went to replicate that dream.

I made this gorgeous homemade american style biscuits. They were warm and light and fluffy and perfect when done, and then I made standard sausage gravy to go with it (another american favorite) only I took the old recipe and added a few tweaks.

I added fresh tyme and parsley, as well as fresh green pepper, garlic and half an onion all diced in the gravey. It was heavenly, and I think even better than the dream itself.

It reminded me of making them with my grandma as a kid, and later as she was with me during the birth of my first child. How lovely family memories are.

2008: A Healthy Estate.

My goal for 2008 started off a simple trial. Take a walk outside everyday.

This then escalated into: "Become healthy" which escalated into having a personal trainer and going to the gym 3 times a week.

I'm really proud of the newest addition to the family, but i'm ready to have my body back now. And yes it is possible. I Know it is because I am living that life now.
It's hard work, but it's not nearly as hard as I made it out to be in my head. The hardest part is looking at my overweight body in the mirror at the gym, with all it's imperfections, and feeling like i am not as good as anyone else. But i also realize that this train of thought is counterproductive, and am striving to visualize myself fit. And as england would say "Become a Yummy Mummy". I'm thinking positive and working my ass off. And even if I cant see the resultes yet, I feel them. My mood swings are less, my cravings are less, and I'm over all more healthy.

I have also signed back up for Weight Watchers online in order to track my own progress and how much I eat. since I realize I need help right now to work out the appropriate amount of food for myself day to day. I'm just not good enough yet at recognizing when I am hungry or not. I'm also not taking into account my activity levels which are much more than they used be a few weeks ago.

So yes, I'm a bit obsessed with health, but between last years health fiasco and the growing problems genetically found in my family (mother's side) for cancer and other illnesses, Health has taken a priority in the the top 3 on my list.

So here I am trying to balance my normal sedentary loves, like writing, in with my busy schedule which now includes working full time, kids, husband, and church ect.
It's is crazy to juggle it all!

Life is good however, and plans to move back to the U.S. are full steam ahead. We're waiting on Rose's passport(s) to come in the mail and then alex can go down to london to apply for his visa. Life is really good :)