Sunday Schedules

The last 2 months have been a bit hard for my husband and going to church. But we are going to church today, and after much prayer on my part I think Al is willing to give it his all. I hope he won't be disappointed. I'm mostly hoping he feel uplifted by the experience and feels the Holy Spirit while there. I want him to focus less on the other people and more on himself. We had a good chat about it last night, along with his insecurities and not understanding why he doesn't want to go. We'll see what happens. But I'm still going to pray and fast for him. He's on an internal struggle and he needs my help.

I'm trying to think of other ways to support him too. But I don't know if pushing him out the door to come to church is counter productive or not. Even though last night he agreed to go, he's now become wishey washy on the subject and won't get out of bed. I love my husband and I know he has faith in God but I think he just lacks necessary faith in himself. I wonder how else I can cheerlead him in his duties and blessings as a priesthood holder. He just doesn't know all the wonderful blessings our family receives, and peace in our home when we attend church together. And being able to partake of the sacrament is the reason I go because it's so personal and spiritual and it gives me that lift for the week and helps me overcome my weaknesses. I think I just have to be strong now. Al was strong when I was weak and now it's my turn to give back in love and kindness.

You see it's only been fairly recently that Al has found Christ in his life and after that burning fire that sustained him he's now required to rely on his faith, and if I don't read scriptures and pray with him I don't know if it ever gets done. I think I need to back off on trying to control his spiritual behavior and just be there for him when he needs me. It's not very christ-like to make him go to church or be any certain way- i was just doing it out of worry for him and his spiritual health. I don't know if he has thought about the continued spiritual health of himself or not. Maybe I could suggest that? Maybe I'm just thinking about this too much and God will work through me when he needs to hear what he needs to hear. I hope so because I'm only human and I don't always know what to say to help my husband. :(